dear kamu,

Please. Just let me express here. I dunno where to express. Ni bukan sebab gatal sangat nak kawen. This is also random. Just wanna say to my future husband. I’ll promise to treat you as a king and respect you. Because my heaven are with you. And I know you’ll treat me as a queen also right? We’re going to be a team striving for paradise. Sy janji sy akan bertolak ansur dgn awak, sy akan percayakan awak. So please don’t break my trust. Please. Sy nak awak tahu sy ada satu kelemahan. Sy tak suka tgk org bergaduh. Even sy tak kenal siapa yg bergaduh, sy memang tk boleh tgk org gaduh. Sbb sy akan nangis2. Nk tgk game rugby dulu pun bertahun sy nk adapt dgn permainan kasar. Wwe? Lg haram sy tk tengok. Sy fobia tgk org gaduh2. Dulu classmate lelaki sy pernah gaduh2, sy org yg pertama menyorok. Sy takut awk. So sy taknak ada gaduh2 dgn awak. Sy akan try paham awk so that takde gaduh2 melampau. Sy akan support ape2 yg awak buat. Sy akan berterima kasih dgn setiap apa yg awk buat dekat sy.Please future husband. I mean it when I wrote this. Just don’t ask me why I’m writing all this things. Because I don’t have any answer.

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Shera ckp jgn sekali kali give up sbb persahabatan yang terjalin sudah terlalu lama. Sorry shera. Aku tk dpt nk ikut kata kau sebab aku nk give up. Aku dh give up. Mungkin aku bukan kawan yang baik. Mungkin dia mengharap semua kawan dia sempurna tapi aku manusia yg penuh dosa dan cacat cela. Jadi tak payah mengharap kesempurnaan aku untuk teruskan menjadi kawan dia. Aku penat sangat. Aku letih nak cuba pelbagai cara. Sakit. Yup. Sangat sakit. Sebab tak mampu nak tanggung, aku lepaskan dia pergi dan aku give up untuk menjadi kawan dia lagi. Maaf. Maaf kerana terhegeh2 berkawan dengan dia. Aku tetap akan doakan dia dapat kawan yang sempurna, bukan seperti aku.

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I’m dead. Totally dead. A smile can’t hide the sadness deep in my heart. A fake smile. I already try to happy but one person knew that there’s something behind the happiness. And the person are not my besties pun. Ya, she’s a good friend of mine and I do love her. She can read my mind though. Then I realize, I still have many friends beside me. Many but if I lost one, I become lost too eventhough just one. She is my sunshine, she’s my best friend ever, she’s my twin that I couldn’t leave without her by my side. But now we’re like strangers and awkward silence between us. Ya, its my fault, my damn fault and I don’t know my mouth is so shit. Sorry God, I’ve use my mouth wrongly and its hurt her feelings. I have such a bad mouth ain’t? and not only her that angry with my mouth, my talk. Many friends did. But I forgot about them. Do you feel cool to break their heart shasya? Nope, I’ve just realized it but its too late. She already hate me and I don’t even know what to do. Duhh, stinks mouth of mine. I need to repair my mouth as soon as possible. Ain’t become the silence person is good? At least no one will hurt because of them right? Oh God please, I do love her. Love her till the end. But I don’t want our friendship end just like this. I know her well. When she hate someone, possible she will hate till the end and I’m scared of being one of them. I’m scared. I’m scared of losing she by my side. I’ll try to husnudzon, thinking like she’s maybe have another problem to be settled on. But my husnudzon still can’t break my thought that she will leaving me soon. Allah, this is the big and tough experience You give me and I don’t know I can survived or not. But I know You always beside me even when I don’t even care for You. Forgive me Ya Allah. Forgive your slave please. I know this is the way for You to remind me that I already gone too far form You right? When this happen, I’ve just realize about You. If this the ujian You give me, then I accept it Ya Allah. I accept it. And everything happen for a reason, hikmah. I will wait for the hikmah then.

Pray For Egypt

22nd already. my lappy rosak so thanks for lappy ana. its neither ramadhan nor syawal. its about mesir, yup. EGYPT.
thanks for myself sbb lupa bawak lab report. thanks for mdm chem sbb tak kasi balik bilik amek lab report. thanks shera sbb temankan then ajak tengok tudung2 kat cs.
for that, i have to sent my lab report at central spine and jumpa warga cfs yang prihatin yang cerita pasal mesir, isu di mesir. thanks brother yazid and habib. and plus syarif for promote the badge.
did you all realize on what happened in egypt actually? i'm not going to story you about what happened there because for sure if you ask mr google, millions of result that you'll get. so just search there.
sbb aku sendiri takut aku salah cerita. coz i ain't got many info but still i want to know. thanks for roommates coz selalu cerita pasal mesir. sbb aku boleh gelarkan diri aku buta isu mesir. terasa? buta jugak ke? then tadi dekat cs really make me realised something.
how come you nak mengaku yang you orang Islam sedangkan you tak tau langsung pasal isu sedara you, umat Islam di mesir now? why on earth you can still laughing, happy joking around when your sahabat semuslim are dying out there. for what? yes, for selamatkan agama you, agama kita, agama Islam. and how could you do that, fear nothing. anggap benda tu isu sebelah mata. bila you are 19 years old hidup gembira di samping keluarga and adik islam you yang masih bergelar baby di tembak or lives without her or his parents anymore? and how come you can say there's nothing happened at egypt? ouchh, aku terasa. mereka tak takut mati sebab mati mereka dlm syahid. mati kita? lagi kosong jika jiwa kita kosong tidak ambil peduli pasal islam.
just please, kita bukan mampu nak ke mesir untuk berjihad, kalau ditawarkan pun, tengok lah berapa org je yang sanggup angkat tangan seikhlasnya kan? but being in one agama that is islam, ambik tahu apa yg berlaku kat mesir, doakan saudara2 kita di sana, doakan untuk agama kita, sumbanglah untuk mereka. jika hanya itu yang kita mampu lakukan. dari kita berdiam diri buat2 tak tahu kan?
if you were with Morsi, with Islam, angkat tangan untuk berdoa setiap kali habis solat.
"Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, Kau selamatkan umat Islam yang berada di mesir, di syria, di palestine, di gaza yang telah berjihad di jalanMu, Kau selamatkanlah agama kami, agama Islam Ya Rahim, Kau biarkanlah umat Islam berperang Lillahita'ala Ya Rahman, Kau matikanlah meraka dalam keadaan syahid keranaMu Ya Allah. Sesungguhnya kami redha akan ketetapanMu kerana Engkau Yang Maha Berkuasa lagi Mengetahui. Kau makbulkanlah doa kami Ya Allah."

Pray for Egypt,